My spouse and I recently watched all of Bluey.
(All of it. No regrets.)
Somewhere around season three, we reached a consensus:
I have the personality of Bingo…but the spirit of Muffin.
Which, honestly, explains a lot.
On the outside, I am gentle. Thoughtful. Observant. I notice feelings. I want everyone to be okay. I try to be kind. I apologize when I bump into furniture.
Internally?
Pure Muffin.
Somewhere deep inside me lives Muffin in her grumpy grandma era: wildly confident, slightly feral, and absolutely prepared to argue over a scooter if necessary.
Especially if I’m hungry.
Winter has really brought this duality into focus.
My body wants softness. Blankets. Heating pads. Quiet. Rest.
My nervous system, meanwhile, is standing on the couch yelling, “THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE,” because it’s cold, the schedule changed, and someone suggested doing a thing.
I will be calm and reasonable for hours — and then completely unravel because my shirt sleeves are bothering me.
Classic Muffin.
I’m learning that listening to my body doesn’t always look serene and enlightened. Sometimes it looks like negotiating with a tiny, loud inner creature who is technically correct but extremely dramatic.
So we compromise.
Bingo gets:
gentleness
rest
warmth
compassion
Muffin gets:
snacks
very firm boundaries
a heating pad
and permission to stomp around a little (metaphorically….but sometimes literally)
And honestly?
It’s working.
Some days, healing looks like deep breathing and reflection.
Some days, it looks like laughter.
And some days, it looks like saying, “Okay, okay — I hear you,” and making another cup of coffee.
Field notes from winter:
I contain multitudes.
Some of them are cartoon dogs.
All of them deserve care.
